Open A Gift With Bennett

Cookie Party!

Last night, my brave friend Kimen had Bennett and all of her buddies and families over for a cookie party! The kids had so much fun decorating cookies and playing together! Each of our families continue to grow, so what used to be 6 kids Bennett's age has now turned into 6 two-and-a-half year olds, 4 babies under the age of 8 months, and 2 more babies on the way!   Here are some pictures from our fun night last night!

Bennett painting on her frosting...

Now adding some sprinkles...

YUM! These are good!!

We seriously tried to get all of Bennett's buddies in a picture together...that was pretty much impossible! But here are a couple of funny attempts...

Wait...where's Will?

There he is! This is everyone! (except for 3 of the babies and forget trying to get everyone to look at the camera!!) haha

Pere Marquette Endurance Trail Run (Dec 12th, 2009) - Race Report

We dropped off Bennett at Pa and Joje's house and headed out after work on Friday.  Laura and I stayed at the Lodge in Pere Marquette State Park the night before this race, so I got to sleep in until about 7:15AM. I took a shower, put on my race gear, ate a PB&J sammich and part of a banana, and then headed across the street to packet pick-up to meet up with some friends; Travis, Matt, Andy, and Brian, and their respective significant others.
The race started in waves of about 25 people, every 30 seconds.  I started in wave #4 (technically, the 5th wave because there is a wave #0) by virtue of entering my most recent 10k time. Admittedly, I made one up since I didn't have a real one to go with. It was fair, though. It gave me a shot to run with faster people, and not get bogged down folks who would start a lot slower than me.


Right out of the gate, people blasted forward and I ended up about mid-pack as we surged up the first hill, a behemoth mound of dirt, steps, roots, and rocks boasting a relentless 450ft of climb in about 1.25miles. It didn't take long before I started power walking the steepest pitches. Success! A few racers ran by me in first few minutes that I reeled in by walking shortly thereafter. Those who were laboring to even jog up these initial hills were doing themselves a huge disservice. With long strides and swinging arms, I quickly made my way to the top of the hill, no worse for the wear, and most importantly, ready to RUN.

I barrelled down every hill at top speed, sometimes with reckless abandon. I was already catching people from the waves ahead of me less than 2 miles in, and doing most of this damage on the descents.  All the while, it took a solid mental effort not to get caught up in my own competitiveness as people ran by me up the hills.  Just before the peak of each big climb, I'd start running again and pass a few more people who couldn't gather their legs under them after trashing them on the climb. Not a single person passed me permanently.

Eventually, the race was really strung out at the front, and at times 50-100yds separated people. Every time it felt like I had picked off the last person I was going to be able to catch, I'd close in on, and pass, one more.

I knew I was having a pretty good race when I didn't see Laura and the rest of the crew at the road-crossing about 6mi in because she wasn't expecting me there yet. At best, I'd hoped to finish in around 1:05. Until the last 1.25 miles, I hadn't really taken the time to do any math. But after a quick estimation, it dawned on me that I could break that elusive 1hr barrier if I really let it rip. I gathered myself for one final push and ran like hell trying to catch the next guy in front of me. I gave chase with everything I had left, but didn't gain much ground. The guys at the front of this race had some really quick legs, but I had no idea how close to the front I was.

I ran full tilt through the finish line to the cheers of my wife and friends. 59:56.  Totally spent! That was awesome.  I typically have a pretty good idea of what I'm capable of on race day, but I got a nice surprise at Pere Marquette.  It would not have surprised me to finish 10th in my Age Group, so I was thrilled get 4th place in the M25-29 division, 14th place Overall... and crack the elusive 1hr barrier.

Afterwards, I enjoyed grabbing some snacks from the cookie table (sweet double-stuffed mint Oreo goodness!), and some adult beverages as we waited for the results to roll in.  On our way back home, we stopped at the Grafton Winery with our friends to get lunch and swap stories.  As an added bonus, if we returned our race bibs (with the timing chips in them) at the winery, they would give us a free pour of wine or beer.  Deal!

I was so excited about the race, I wanted to run again the next day.  I felt like I'd been hit by a truck, but went out to the Chubb Trail and slogged out a painful 12 miles or so.  I managed to have a good time, but I won't do that again!  Well... not right after a race.

Christmas is Coming!!

Bennett is really in the Christmas spirit! Today was her last day of school until Jan. 5.  She was so excited to give her teachers their Christmas presents, and they sang lots of Christmas songs at school too.  Her favorite, by far, is Rudolph, so I included the video of us singing above (please disregard my voice and just listen to Bennett's!!)

Here's a picture of her ready to go to school this morning...

Also, yesterday Meredith came over to help me bake cookies.  Bennett was supposed to be napping but she decided not to instead.  Meredith had brought Bennett a surprise...a Dora Christmas movie! So Bennett watched that while we baked.  Then Meredith sat down to read a Christmas story to Bennett after the movie was over.   Well...Bennett didn't make it through the whole story!! haha  At least she got a nap!

I'm hoping that Bennett will go to sleep today because tonight we have a cookie decorating party at her friend Hollye Anne's house.  Bennett is very excited about it!!  I will have to post pictures after tonight's Christmas get together with all of her buddies!

Seven Zero Zero!

Success again this morning! 
But we were a little nervous at first.  Bennett got up at about 6:37AM, and I think she got excited to simply see a "7" on her princess alarm clock.  I heard her hop out of bed, emerge from her room, and pause in the hallway between our bedroom and her's.  I could tell she was thinking that something wasn't quite right.
Lilo approached her with a soft "meow."  Bennett answered politely in kind, and I couldn't help chuckling a little to myself, even though I would rather be sleeping. 
Their conversation escalated.  Lilo let out a sharp, "meow." 
Bennett replied, "mee-owww" more sternly. 
Their conversation crescendoed with two louder and longer "meows" before ending abruptly.
Then we heard the clicking sound (to make it glow) from Bennett's alarm clock.  By now it was probably 6:39AM.  Sevens can be so fleeting!  The pitter-patter of quick toddler steps back into her room were music to this dad's ears.  She was angelic for the next 20 minutes, reading in bed to her small army of stuffed creatures.
At seven o'clock on the button, she came charging in, confident that it was indeed time to get up. "It says seven zero zero now on my clock," she announced.  Spot on. 
For her next trick, she'll be learning to change diapers and swaddle.

This Morning

This morning was a true test for Bennett.  Recently, her rule has been that she has to wait until the sunshine comes up before she can get out of bed and come in our room.  That worked pretty well for awhile.  However, she's been really into time and clocks lately, so I have been showing her that the first number on the clock needs to be a 7 to get up.  If it still says 6, then it's too early.  This morning, at 6:35, she came running into our room.  Brandon told her that it was too early because the clock still said 6, so she needed to go back to bed.  She ran in her room and started crying hysterically.  I went in there and put her clock right next to her in bed, tucked her in and got her started with reading some books to her animals and dolls in her bed.  This was a test for me because she looked up at me and so innocently asked, "Mommy, could I just come in your room early as a special treat today?"  How do you resist that? But somehow I did.  For the next 25 minutes, we could hear her reading in her bed, and very frequently I could hear the click of her pushing her button on her clock to make it glow so she could see the time.  At 7:00 on the button, she came running into our room, carrying her little clock.  First she came to my side of the bed and showed me the time, then she ran over to Brandon's side to show him that 7 was the first number.  She was so proud of herself and we were so proud of her for being patient and waiting! I was very glad that I didn't give in to her crying and pleading to get out of bed early.  :)

Christmas Festivities

We had a great holiday-filled day today! This morning, Grandma Joje took us to "breakfast with Santa."  He even arrived on a golf cart! Bennett decided (without any prompting) that Santa must have arrived on a golf cart because there is no snow on the ground, so he couldn't ride in his sleigh.  I thought that was pretty clever! Bennett did well sitting on his lap and talking with him.  She told Santa that she wanted "a baby doll and a present" for Christmas.  She didn't like the elf lady very much though!! Following brunch, we went to pick out our Christmas tree, and then we decorated it tonight.  Bennett had so much fun looking through all of the ornaments and helping me hang them on the tree.  She's VERY into all aspects of Christmas this year.  I love it! 

Ready to go!

Here comes Santa!!

Bennett and Grandma Joje

Bennett and Daddy

SANTA!!

Santa even gave Bennett a toy! 

Family pic

Bennett helping to hang ornaments on the tree

Putting the angel on top of the tree

It's the Holiday Season!

It's here! The holidays! I've been shopping like crazy, and I'm happy to say that I'm very close to being finished! Yay!! We will be getting our tree this weekend (pics to follow), but I've already gotten out most of our other decorations.  I put away all of Bennett's Beanie babies, and just got out her Christmas ones (there are quite a few!).  She loves to organize them, and pair them together with common characteristics (ex. bears with wings, or all of the red ones, etc).

Bennett organizing her Christmas Beanies

  She is also still in LOVE with Nativity sets! She has her own Little People Nativity and Santa train that she plays with every day.  No matter where she goes, she often has a baby Jesus with her too!!!

Bennett lined up all of her Little People and animals to "go see Baby Jesus," who she prominently displayed on the hay!

Sporting her Dora Christmas jammies from Nana and Papa last night after her bath...of course, she has Baby Jesus in hand!

Today, she stayed later at school and participated in a holiday party.  She was the youngest one there, because the kids have to be potty trained to go to the party, and not many kids in her class are potty trained yet.  It seems like she had a great time though, and she made a cute craft and cookie.  

Bennett ready for school this morning

It's fun that she's more excited about Christmas this year.  She understands the concept of Santa much more this year, and she's even into other Christmas stories, like Rudolph the Red Nosed Reindeer.  Such a fun time of year!! 

November

Wow! I can't believe it's December already! Sorry for the lack of blog posts lately! November was a busy month, but I'll try to hit some of the highlights/funny Bennett moments! 

First of all, Brandon and I were able to take advantage of a kids' movie night at AGC.  Bennett went downstairs and watched Ice Age with a bunch of kids and some babysitters, and we were able to enjoy a nice dinner alone! I was not sure if she was old enough to do it, but she had a great time...and so did we!

Also, Bennett was very excited to help Daddy and me make our fixings for our "friend Thanksgiving" celebration.  I found an old apron of mine from when I was little, and let her wear it.  Then she was a big helper counting potatoes as I peeled them for the mashed potatoes, and helping us count out teaspoons, tablespoons and cups to make our traditional Chex Mix.  She even snacked on a few...hey, counting is hard work!  

Recently, Grandma Joje took Bennett and me to the shoe store to get Bennett some "fancy shoes" for the holidays.  While in the store, a lady who worked there took a liking to Bennett and started talking to her.  She asked Bennett, "What is your favorite part of Thanksgiving?" To be fair, I don't think Bennett really remembers Thanksgiving from last year, so she just came up with the first response she could think of.   She answered the lady by saying quite confidently, "Pottying."  The lady thought it was hilarious! I guess you never know what is going to come out of a 2 1/2 year old's mouth! You can tell what we've been talking about a lot around here these days!! 

Another classic line came when Bennett and I were out doing errands one day.  I told her the list of places we had to go, including my eye doctor to pick up my contacts which had come in.  Well, when we got there, we were walking down the hallway to my doctor's office, and Bennett looked up at me and said, "Mommy, we're going to get your eye-tacts at your iPod doctor!" 

We had a lot of fun with Meredith while she was home for Thanksgiving break.  Bennett loves playing with her Aunt so much! I also enjoyed a cooking class that we finally took together.  It was a Christmas gift that she gave me last year.  I'm glad we were finally able to schedule it before Christmas rolled around again! Thanksgiving was fun and delicious as always.  We enjoyed the marathon day in Illinois visiting the Rulls at Uncle Stan and Aunt Carla's house for a Thanksgiving feast for lunch, and then traveling to Uncle Steve and Aunt Helen's house to have yet another yummy feast for dinner with the Reeds.  Bennett was very good, especially since she only had two 20 minute catnaps on various car rides.  Grace's trampoline and Aunt Helen's toy food left lasting impressions on her too!

On the baby front, I can't believe I am already 31 weeks! I took this picture 2 weeks ago at 29 weeks, but haven't gotten it up here yet.  He has been moving so much lately! I read somewhere that this week and next week are the peak of his movements before he gets bigger and starts running out of room.  Boy, can I tell! He's been kicking like crazy! Brandon even said last night, "I don't know how you sleep with him moving around like that!" It's quite the party in there right now.  I had an appointment today, and the doctor said everything looks good! I'm measuring right at 31 weeks now, instead of a little big like I was before.  I start seeing the doctor every two weeks now for the month of December and then weekly in January.  Definitely coming toward the end! I tried to convince the doctor that the best Christmas gift she could give me would be to find some reason for us to get another ultrasound (we love those things!).   But, unfortunately and fortunately, she said my insurance only allows another one if there is a "medical necessity," and my pregnancy is sailing along very smoothly, so no reason for one now.  She suggested asking Santa for a 3D ultrasound...hmmmm.  ;)  

 

OPSF Pics

I assure you, there was nothing pleasant about this trail.

Me, JCash, and a guy attempting the 50 miler just 5 miles in.

Me.

JCash making it look easy up the hill.

About 18 miles in.

Fashionista

Bennett has become quite the fashionista lately! One of her favorite things to do is get into a closet...hers, mine, the baby's, wherever, and look through all the clothes.  She will describe what each item of clothing looks like, and she likes to have a say in what she wears.  Sometimes, I let her go wild and put on whatever she wants, from whatever closet she has been in recently...these outfits turn out quite funny!!

This morning: PJs, boots and my ribbon belt!

A sparkly black shirt she got out of  my closet...she called this her "beautiful black dress!"

Another hilarious one that I didn't think was quite appropriate to post the picture of...let's just say it included her orange Halloween underwear, my black sports bra, and her pink visor!!

In other news, Great-Grandma Caskey made Bennett some adorable new tutus.  Bennett LOVES tutus and enjoys putting them on with her fancy shoes and magic wand to dance!  Here she is modeling her new tutus!

I forgot to post this picture of Bennett going to school on the day before Halloween.  I thought she looked so cute though, so I put it up here now.  :)

Oh! And we also want to wish Pa a happy 60th birthday today!!! We miss you, and can't wait till you come back from Florida so we can celebrate!! :)

OPSF 50k Trail Race - Race Report

Owen Putnam State Forest is in Spencer, IN.  That's a little south of Bloomington, about four hours from St. Louis.  That's the sound of dueling banjos you hear in the background.  In the final miles of the drive to the race site the night before, we noticed that this is the type of place where if a truck breaks down in a front yard, that becomes its final resting place. 
John, my training partner, and fellow trail running enthusiast, drove us to the race site (a horseman's campground) to check out the scene of the next day's festivities.  There, we encountered one wild-eyed, middle-aged woman wearing lipstick that was fifteen shades too bright, setting up a tent. And LOTS of locals.  We eventually came to refer to them affectionately as "horse people." We called our new friend the "crazy lady" because she couldn't remember if she had done this race two or three times in the past, and she regaled us with tales of DNFs (Did Not Finish) around 70 miles at her last three 100 miler attempts.
That night, we stayed at the Canyonn Inn in McCormick's Creek State Park.  I chose this location because the only other option looked very sketchy.  It turned out to be a great spot, and it even had a down-home dining facility in it, so I was able to indulge in some chicken parm before turning in for the night.
Alarms were set for 5AM, but weren't needed.  I was up, and I was ready.  We drove to the race site, 10 minutes away, and arrived about one hour early.  Just enough time to get comfortable with the temperatures, set up drop bags, make one last bathroom stop, and chat with the other racers.  Being a small, low-key event, we all gathered around the Race Director as he gave us some final directions.  Then he asked us all to reflect in a moment of silence to collect our thoughts.  Try finding that at your local 5k on pavement.  Unceremoniously, we were off without fanfare, and the long day had begun.
John and I stuck together through the first 5 mile loop.  Some of it was on old country roads, but the rest was in a powerline cut that was laden with thistles and brambles grabbing at our shoes and legs.  The highlight was a huge muddy drop-off like an elevator shaft made of muck.  We nearly ended up taking each other out, but managed to avoid catastrophe.  Just a couple miles in, we caught two guys who had gone out pretty quickly, and were now confused by the course markings.  We decided to ignore the random pink blazes, and stay on the road.  It worked out fine, and we came in from the first loop in about 49 minutes.
At that point, I ditched my gloves, hat, headlamp, and handheld water bottle.  I picked up my hydration belt instead, and we were ready to go out on the first big loop.  Four of us ran together and chatted for a couple miles until John and I pulled ahead.  We had put some good distance between us and them when I lead us on a scenic detour of a creek bed surrounded by thickets.  We got to following some old trail markers and it took us off course.  Great.
"Hey guys!" We heard some shouting.  "Over here.  I think we go THIS way!!"  The other two guys had caught up to us and helped us get back on the right path.  Good thing trail runners are good people.  I think the road-running contingent is much more cutthroat. With our nice little lead evaporated, we set out to establish it once again.  And we did.  By power walking the uphills and cruising the descents, we managed to make my navigational error a distant memory.
The rest of this loop was uneventful, yet exciting.  We ran into a couple people who were bleeding and lost.  Among them was "crazy lady."  This is apparently a normal character to run into during ultras.  You just have to hope you're not "that guy" or "that girl."  We also ran through some ever-changing terrain and scenery.  There were deep ravines and valleys, thick pine forests, hard packed single track trail, rocky fire road, and best of all, sloppy, muddy, mucky bridle trails.
With our shoes and socks decidedly destroyed, we both resolved to change them before heading back out for the last loop.  This was a good idea because I could already feel gritty sand and silt on my feet that had seeped in through the mesh on my shoes.  None of the creek crossings were bad, but the mud was plentiful and inevitable.

That loop had taken about 2hrs 33mins and measured 13.65mi on my Garmin.

At this point, John and I parted ways (or rather, paces) because unfortunately, his stomach wasn't happy, and he was forced to back off the pace and wait until the Rolaids kicked in.  Once the RD told us we were in first and second place in the 50k standings, I was off and running strong.  Deep into the second loop, I was still eating a drinking really well, and feeling pretty darn good considering I was well into uncharted territory in terms of time.  Floating down the trail, I was in my own little world.  It seemed I was the only person around for miles.  No sooner had I confirmed the presence of two whitetail deer about 50 yards up the trail, when BOOM!!  Somebody tried to shoot one of them.  The deer fled quickly, and so did I, with a surge of adrenaline. 
I hit the marathon point (26.2) at 4hrs 42mins into the race, and let out a celebratory yelp because every step thereafter meant a new personal best for me in terms of distance travelled on foot.  Even if I had to be extracted via helicopter or horse, I was setting a new personal record.  The only other time I've run a marathon was at the end of Ironman, and that one was flat and only took 3:42.  This is a different animal, though.  I still had a long ways to go, and it was getting hot, and I was feeling a little tired.  I took some more ibuprofen to dull the pain, and choked down another packet of those gawdawful tasting Cherry sport beans.  Back in action, excited to be done, and perhaps a little delirious, I ran with all I had left after leaving the last aid station.
Less than a mile from the finish, I saw "crazy lady" heading back out for her second loop.  She told me she was feeling pretty good, but had managed to get lost earlier.  I already knew that because we saw her heading up the trail the wrong direction about 12 miles in.  We stopped and talked to her for crying out loud.  We wished each other good luck, and continued on.  I laughed to myself a little.  "She would get lost," I thought.  That's about the point I made a wrong turn.  I arrived back at the campsite from the opposite direction I should have.  Running can be humbling, and as I soon learned; the trail giveth, and the trail taketh away.  After showing them my Garmin at the finish line that read 31.1 miles, and about 5hrs 35mins, I was dumbfounded.  We were all a little confused, actually.  I think they were ready to let me off the hook and declare me the winner, but luckily I was able to consult with OPSF veteran "Norm," who knew that I must have missed the turn about .3 miles back.  So back out I went, determined to shake off the tunnel vision that had put me in this predicament.  About fifteen frustrating minutes later, I arrived at the finish line... again.  This time, I had some bonus mileage under my belt (32.88 miles, all told), but still managed to stay in first place.

That loop took about 2hrs 30min, and measured 14.1mi.

Immediately after stopping, I felt an overwhelming sense of relief and accomplishment ... followed by a wave of pain and soreness that required me to sit.  My feet, legs, and back were covered in mud.  Underneath that was a couple dozen paper-cut-like red marks that I hadn't noticed all day.  It looked like perhaps I tried to shave my legs left-handed in the dark, while drinking. I have just a few small blisters, and one tiny puncture right between my eyes from a well-placed trailside thorn bush. Other than that, I felt pretty good, so I hobbled to the car to change into fresh clothes.  I drank a ton of Gatorade and water while resting at the finish area.  John came in second place.  The Missouri/Washington boys swept the top spots! 
By the time we headed home a couple hours later, I felt great, and the smile couldn't be wiped from my face.  We were barely an hour into the long drive home when John and I plotted our next adventure.  Stay tuned!
Today I think I can run again, but it will be pretty slow.  Although not as heavy as they were on Sunday, there is still some fatigue that will need to work itself out of my legs.  And I hope to have pictures available soon.  Either I was hallucinating, or there really was a guy with a nice camera taking pictures at several places along the course.

Win a 50k trail race: check

You're looking at the Owen Putnam State Forest 50k winner. I
technically, due to some navigational errors, ran 32.88mi in 5hrs
50min. Right now, I feel pretty awsome on account of the Krispy Kremes
and Dairy Queen. Tomorrow could be very different. :)

Nana's visit, Halloween and Babymoon!

Nana came to visit us Friday through Wednesday.  It was great to see her, and she was nice enough to watch Bennett for a few days while Brandon and I got away on a little "babymoon" (see below).  Bennett had so much fun with her.  They read hundreds of books and played, played, played.  Bennett definitely misses Nana already, and keeps talking about Christmastime when Nana is going to bring Papa with her too!

Here they are playing with rakes outside...

We didn't do an excellent job of getting pictures of Bennett on Halloween, but here she is as a ladybug.  It was a great treat for Brandon and I both to be able to take her around trick-or-treating, since Lorie was there to pass out candy at our house.  I think Bennett got a kick out of the whole thing, and definitely understood it more than last year! She really loved her antennae! Even after she took her costume off, she kept the headband on for awhile!

Brandon and I left from Sunday to Tuesday to go to Big Cedar Lodge for a little getaway.  It was so relaxing and the weather was amazing the whole time! High 60s and I think maybe even low 70s! We had our own private log cabin, and we really enjoyed our spa treatments, great food, relaxing and we even did some fishing on Tablerock Lake with a guide and caught lots of white bass! 

Brandon enjoyed taking some time to play with our camera and learn about different shutter speeds, etc.  Here is a picture of some of the beautiful waterfalls in front of the lodge.  

Okay, so maybe the fish we caught weren't this big, but they were definitely a good size! We took a couple home to eat and they were quite tasty!!

Sleepy Girl

As I eluded to yesterday, Bennett escaped from her bed at nap time, and I was not able to get her to go back down.  Then, later in the day, she was reading some books, so I encouraged her to move to her "reading chair" in her room.  She was excited to read there.  I told her I was going to go change the laundry and I would check on her in a couple minutes.  While I was downstairs, I heard a loud crash, and Bennett didn't respond.  So I ran upstairs into her room and found her like this.....

Little Miss Stubborn had finally fallen asleep! I guess the crash was all of her books falling off of her lap!

She was great at bedtime last night and this morning, but after a 1/2 hour in her bed today at nap time, she got out again! This time I lured her back into her bed by allowing her to read her "big book" (a HUGE book of bedtime stories from Uncle Tom that she LOVES) in her bed.  That book usually has to stay in the living room.  After a few minutes of reading her big book, she was off to sleep.  PHEW! She needed this nap BADLY!!

Fishing Success!

On Sunday, we headed out to Innsbrook.  Brandon helped Bennett successfully catch her first fish! Well, he caught it, but she reeled it in.  Her Princess fishing pole still has not had any luck, but it did have a few nibbles while we were there, so at least she got to see the bobber go under water! Here they are with their catch.  Bennett is already telling fisherman tales, because she refers to this fish as the HUGE fish that she and daddy caught!

On another note, my worst nightmare came true today.  Bennett hasn't really napped at all for the past 4 days straight.  However, she still spends at least an hour reading quietly in her bed, so I count that as some pretty good rest time.  Today, she had only been in her bed about a half hour when I heard a little pitter patter of feet upstairs.  She had GOTTEN OUT of her bed! This is the first time she has ever tried it.  I'm so sad!!! 

Our Newest Holiday Baking Adventure

Happy Halloween!! :)

Skippo Pics!

Finally got some pictures from the race a couple weeks ago.  This section is the dreaded stairs.  A set of 400 steps that get you from the river you can see down below, to the top of the hill without the benefit of significant  switchbacks.  I did my best to put on a happy face for the camera.  That was difficult the second time around. 

Big thanks to Big River Running Co. for putting on the race, and having awesome photos available.